9 September 2010, 3:23 am
I am a Korean American studying in a Korean University in Seoul and my girlfriend is a Korean that was born in China. Me and my girlfriend have been going out for a little more than one year, and I don't understand why I feel so horrible when I am not with her. In other words missing her like crazy... What I don't understand is that I see her almost every single day, so there is absolute no need for me to feel this way. I am trying numerous things to calm my self down and not think about her too much... She clearly doesn't feel the same way, because shes worried about her studies I think... I feel stupid for feeling like this.... Her birthday was like a week ago and I used all my money to buy a couple necklace for us to have something meaningful together. I only have seen her wear it like twice and didn't wear it on the following days. She told me she was too busy getting ready for class and forgot to put it on.... So I felt really sad that she didn't wear the present I got her with almost all the cash I had.... Another thing is that she called me one night and was crying in front of me, and kept asking me what should I do to improve my English. She was crying about how all of her friends in China went to the states to study and shes the only one in Korea attending university. I told her "Don't worry your a smart girl, and there are many people who are very good at English even though they have never gone to the states..." I hugged her and stayed with her even though it was like 1-2am in the morning. I am constantly thinking about her and for that reason I wasn't able to sleep that night because I was more worried about her than myself. And I know that it is very dangerous for me to feel this way.. I haven't been able to sleep alot because I feel as if I am a burden to her... The next day... She told me that she was going to apply for exchange student in the states for one semester by herself to Arkansas University.. For that reason I became very sad and wasn't able to sleep through the following nights... I hope she realizes that I love being with her and only her... I know it's just one semester, but when she went to Japan for 1 week last time. I was missed her more and more every single day.... There was another thing that I didn't really like about what she did that happened yesterday. I said hi to a classmate of mine and she said why did you say hi to her and got mad at me.... For me I like to say hi to everyone to create a good atmosphere throughout the school as I am a type of person who wants to get along with everybody... She got absolutely pissed and just left me there.... I went to class with her and she started to ignore me and not even look at me... After my last class with her I said bye to her.. and I called her after and said I was going to my friends university to study... She started to get mad that I was not going to eat with her and didn't say bye to her... When I did say bye... The only reason I wanted to go to my friends university is because I am trying to be considerate to her and let her have her studying space... If I stay around the university I most of the time feel like shit because I miss her so much... She basically got mad because of that and started to said "OK DO WHATEVER YOU WANT!!!" I followed her to the students cafeteria and ate with her but she wouldn't even talk to me, when I kept saying I am sorry and I love you. She walked back into her room and blocked my phone number I started to cry in front of my friend who was gonna go to my friends university with me.... He was absolutely shocked because I never cry in front of anyone... When I went there I felt like crap and couldn't do anything... Since I was so eager to talk to her I called her using a pay phone and spent $2 to reach her.. She finally picked up my call and cried on the phone saying " I am sorry I didn't let you go to your friends university, I am sorry for getting mad at you..." "I love you".... I came back to the my university and told her to see me... She was like don't say hi to that girl ever again... She told me that I don't understand her feelings... and never listen to her... Please give me your suggestions and what I should do...... Read More »
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