5 February 2012, 5:56 am
Please take my question seriously. I should not really be asking this on yahoo answer. But as usual yahoo answer is my last resort. I'm sorry.I asked the question but no one answered so reeuplode. Why can i say my life has too much drama? -In Home (Family) -father leaved me when i was not yet born -mother married a brutal and violent man -we're starting to collapse financially -nobody truly cares for me , only my grandmother. If she dies , i don't know what to do. -i've been treated badly by my mom and dad (They say I'm nothing but an idiot and i'm not important anymore because they have a new daughter) -My parents always fight and hurt each other -i get no support from anyone. Only my grandmother keeps me motivated. :(( -nobody talks to me :(( -my family has lot of enemies , i even got involved. Almost got killed once. defending my family but i still get blammed by my mom that it's all my fault -I don't feel i have parents. they are so mean :( My Social Life -Some people are bullying me verbally. Saying bad things and really bad as in it hurts to not be ignored( i had experienced of physical bullying , once i was stabbed with a knife once i was beaten up until shame of defeat and surrender , reported to school prefect, principal nothing happened but it just passed by. Reported to the police and still nothing happened.) - i have very few friends. about 4 or 5. (No true friend , Forever alone :(( ) -Girls say i look good and that stuff , but some people in school bullies me to prevent me from communicating with girls. -i have a very bad reputation. :(( some people hates me alot. I'm ashamed. - i start to loose confidence - I met a girl once , who is really nice to me , but we are not able to be in contact with each other anymore. She's pissed off me because some of my friends spread gossips about me. And She's so far away she's in seoul. :((( No chance of seeing her anymore , i'm too young and have no money and job. -people say i'm a ******* failure. My Spiritual Life -I am starting to loose faith -I feel I am not free in my religion -I sometimes feel God Betreyed and forsaken me -I feel that Even i pray and remember him everyday , Jesus can't help me anymore. I also promised that before my grandmother dies , (Who is the most important person in my life who i've experienced parenting and love) I promised to bring her in jerusalem and rome. But i have no money :( it's just that i will feel very sad my grandmother died and i was not able to accomplish her dream. (She was not able to study when she was young , she was in the war (WWII) ) and had been working since she was 16 and still working now she's 73. :(((( this is so bad ! And i'm really sad about now , because I want to change but i can't. T_T I can't cry anymore. Tears won't go out. My heart feels like dying and stone cold. I feel like i wanted to commit suicide and end it all. But NO! I will not easily surrender. I plan to change , but i just can't because i don't know where to get support. No Friends , No Money ,No family :(( man that's how I feel. I just feel i can't surrender until i had fulfilled my promise to my grandma. And i wish to hunt down and kill my original father for what he made my life worth for like this. I have negative feelings. I wanted to study martial arts , workout and develop my self but there's no one that would help me and i don't have the money for it. :(( And no one supports me. :(( Please help me. I want to change and wanted to get revenge. The sadness suddenly turned into anger , but still that sadness won't go away. I rarely smile. :( Please help and I'm too young. I can't draw my strength to continue on with life anymore. Any help will be appreciated greatly. You will change my life. I just can't seem to be motivated anymore. :(( Please Answer . 33 minutes ago - 4 days left to answer. Additional Details It's not easy to find the person to be in comfort to talk with. I started to loose the ability to trust. All officials in my F* school are corrupt. There's nothing that gives me the inspiration to continue fighting off this everyday routine but the girl i met that lives in seoul , and my passion martial arts , which i may never be able to try. :(( No body supports me at all. 13 minutes ago And my Grandmother who i draw inspiration from.... Read More »
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